kaito | "Mr. Cellaphane should have been my name." (Reply)

I really hate my life. I honestly feel like I only have three friends, and that's only because they'll IM me whenever I'm on AOL or MSN. Then there's this stupid theater department where I don't feel like I'm a part of it at all. I honestly think the only reason I get any attention paid to me is because either it's one of the few other people who don't feel like a part of it (and none of them are majors), because my being a major gives them money, or because they have a question and no one else is around (seriously just happened). I mean, I'm sitting in the office crying and like three people have said something to me about it. Three. Out of about thirty people here. I'm totally skipping strike. I felt like crap in the first place and this just isn't helping. This place is so freaking cliquey and I'm not in one so I don't matter! It's like freaking show choir all over again. It's really too bad that I wanna be a voice actress so much (and go to Africa), because otherwise, I'd leave. In fact, I'm going to see how next year goes (mostly for Tanzania), and see about transferring. I don't know if any other schools will be any better. Chances are I won't have any friends there either. But I just feel like crap. It's like I don't matter to anyone. Except for like those three people who IM me all the time, and that makes me happy.

~msbbt